I am a submissive, masochistic woman, and I certainly don't believe myself to be mentally ill, nor do I really think of myself as "just having some fun.
I wouldn't do it if it didn't make me happy, but it fills a need in my soul, just like sex and intimacy do. Without submission and pain, I get cranky and irritable, just like I do if I'm not getting sex regularly. Same principle there.
I crave more sensation, and more intense sensation…... pain, than others. And I prefer to give up control, to obey, to let someone else decide, so I’m seeking a Master/Mistress. Kinky sex games work best if my lover enjoys being in the power seat on a daily basis and is looking for erotic games and encounters and for taking ownership of me.
I got involved in fetishism via a boyfriend who had had experience with it. Right away it felt adventurous and exciting.
I have a vast collection of lingerie, but I also have a love for love for latex and leather fashion.